Oh yes please yes oh yes come on yes! yes with me, YES!

Yesssssss

No nothing really important just spamming yes cause i'm bored and unhappy and lonely and pathetic as usual ~_____~

On a more less depressing note I'd like to mention, I am more content than usual. Depressed but, content with myself. at least until I smile from making myself laugh in the mirror then realising how bad neglecting brushing your teeth is. Seriously.. It's embarrassing and very gross. I keep telling myself "Okay before I go to sleep I must brush my teeth". And then i forget and repeat. Ugh what I need is somebody at my side to remind me. Mr. LonerKnows is just too irresponsible to even take care of himself.

But yeah happy new year, merry Christmas happy whatever. This year sucked for me, i did nothing on new years and Christmas was the same as always. I spend it with my family but what makes me sad is that I don't have anybody else to share with.. I mean, I got nobody Christmas presents which is upsetting for me. I got no moneys!
No job. No High School diploma no nothing!

My fault though, I am not looking I mean. Even if I found a job, What is so god about it? Sure I get money but I find that people are less real when working. You're no longer a person but a worker of the store or.. factory or whatever. I hate the idea of working. Of course I will if I have to, for now my family takes care of me but I'm sure someday I'll find my way. Although it seems unlikely I mean. Depression has cursed me with the annoying I cannot stay determined at anything. I'm not ambitious! I don't 'want' anything.

But if there's anything I would like, It would to help somebody achieve what they want. I wanna be the person someone can trust the most. And so it would seem I achieved that when I had friends. Which I may still be able to have 1! 1 friend. Although I have neglected him quite a bit. The difficulty is that I only want to go out on my terms. I'm not sure why it is but, much of the time I want to not do anything. But perhaps that's just it. I just need somebody with me, To stay by my side and be my guide through everything. I need that kind of encouragement. Otherwise I only rely on myself, and my teeth tell how that works out.

Heck, my position tells how good it is when I rely on myself.
I truly suck >.<

*yap yap yap yap yap*

Okay Bye beee!